Tuesday, November 22, 1994

since i last saw you

one week
five days
eleven hours
forty-nine minutes
fifty-four seconds
since i last saw you
for 1,079,394 times
i thought of you.

my heart was a unit circle,
and you were its origin,
you were its center.

i listened to music
and you were the beautiful songs,
the harmony was in your face,
the melody was in your grace.

i felt nature hug me
and you were her arms.

it was dark nights,
but you were a full moon,
slowly waning to a smile
that kept my dark nights bright.

all through that time
you were here
near me --
you were oxygen,
you made me breathe.
in me --
you became my heart,
you gave me life.

you were you
and i was i.
oh how i sigh
now you aren't mine.
that the greatest thing in my mind
is only the thought of
you
only the thought of you.
but since the last time i saw you,
i did not love having only the thought of you.
i loved having only you.
i loved only you
and i still do
and i forever will do.
i love you.

Sunday, February 20, 1994

GAMOT SA MUNDO

Di na natuto
Madaming multo
Pakialala
Ang dinanas nila

Gamot sa mundo
Inumin ninyo
Oh-oh
Makasarili
Kahit magkamali
Yon pa’y paninindigan
Manhid sa kapwa

Gamot sa mundo
Inumin ninyo
Oh-oh

Lalo tong lalala
Wala nang sawa
Patay ang bukas
Kung merong bukas

Gamot sa mundo
Inumin ninyo
Gamot sa mundo
Inumin ninyo
Gamot sa mundo
Inumin ninyo
Gamot sa mundo
Inumin ninyo

(Originally Feb 1994
 Recreated April 18, 2025, Guelph)

Monday, January 31, 1994

forgiveness

january 1994

take a deep look into my eyes
tell me what do you see
tears are fallin’ like eternal rain
my problems are floodin’ me

what you doin maybe is just right
i know that i deserve it
but can’t you make it a little more light?
and please forgive me
please, please

baby i’m sorry
i know i was wrong
it’s your forgiveness
i’ve needed for so long
all my sadness
will go if you’ll let it
baby know that all i want
is for us to be good friends
again

how much hurt i’ve taken inside
not knowin’ what i should do
i don’t know what’s on your mind
but i know i had to tell you

all i know is i’ve lost your friendship
somethin’ now i value more than love
takin’ the pain, can’t do with hidin’ it
baby it’s your forgiveness that’s all i ask

going back to the times that we were old friends / i never realized that i made it end
i’m blamin’ myself for the whole thing / situations made me stop givin’ you rings
on the phone, yeah i know that you have lost your trust in me / and that’s the same thing goin’ on with jing
i never really want to lose any friends / i value it more than your love so please give me a second chance